Hello everyone,
It's raining here today in South Ga and I'm in a lousy mood. I know I’m not the only one who ever feels lousy, part of life, I know! I have something I would like to share with you’ll, I feel like talking to someone, anyone. Why not you? I lost five family members last year and the pain of it lives with me everyday. I lost five people not one or two but five in the matter of one year. I deal with death on my job, but it's totally different when it comes with knowing a person all your life and suddenly their gone.
It's raining here today in South Ga and I'm in a lousy mood. I know I’m not the only one who ever feels lousy, part of life, I know! I have something I would like to share with you’ll, I feel like talking to someone, anyone. Why not you? I lost five family members last year and the pain of it lives with me everyday. I lost five people not one or two but five in the matter of one year. I deal with death on my job, but it's totally different when it comes with knowing a person all your life and suddenly their gone.
My brother, a successful businessman, only 29 years old died of a heart attack, his first child born a month after his death; he never had a chance to embrace his son. Some days I can't hardly breathe thinking about him. My 26 yr. old male cousin just fooling around with a motorcycle, press the gas, instead of the brake and felled back fracture his skull, no helmet, he died. If you ever saw his smile, I swear you'll never forget it, I sure didn't. My proud handsome uncle 56 years old had prostate cancer, he hid it from us until he couldn’t take care of himself, and 4 weeks later he died. He was always the strong one, even to the end. My aunt 68 tumor of the brain, she was a gem; it all hit her in a matter of days. My 78 grandfather as he was driving down the road heart attack, no thank God he didn’t hurt anyone. He was known and loved my many. Oh how I miss his singing and praying, even at his age he was still working full-time. All this pain in one year! Words couldn't heal or ease my pain,but time makes everyday a little better. I often heard, that they were in a better place, that hurt me even more, you could have just took a knife and gutted me.The best place they could be is with me, I want to see them smile, make jokes, my brother raise his son, I want to tell them, "I LOVE YOU” embrace them and never let them go. Each one of them brought happiness to my life,which I’ll never forget . I often ask myself, what does one do when you feel lost and alone? My guess is just to live on!
Angela
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